被迫成长的小孩

身边有个长不大的小孩, 小孩的中学时期太美好, 让他很向往回到过去...小孩的身边曾经有一个他放不下也忘不掉的4个非常要好的朋友....小孩很喜欢他们, 真的好喜欢好喜欢...可是日子久了, 小孩就发现, 原来自己在他们的生活里一点都不重要...他们相互重要, 唯独遗漏了小孩...就这样, 小孩发现自己曾经很用心对待的人, 不在乎他...
虽然认清了事实就是这样, 小孩还是留着一丝希望, 希望自己快点离开他们之余, 又希望他们会在离开后依然跟小孩保持联络...可是他们没有...

日子一天天地过去, 虽然是长久的没有联络, 可是不管遇到让小孩开心还是伤心的事都好, 小孩脑里浮现的还是那些人...虽然想过放弃他们, 可是小孩总是觉得只有他们能让自己在分享开心的事之后更开心, 倾诉伤心的事之后可以觉得好些...
于是, 小孩还是去找了他们, 而他们也没有理会小孩...小孩不伤心, 如果他们是因为忙而不理会, 可是小孩总是在被他们无视时, 发现他们只是存粹地不理小孩... ... ... ...就算理了, 语气也显得不耐烦...小孩很心痛, 就一个人躲在角落伤心了起来...他努力地希望想起自己哪里做错哪里做不好, 结果就哭了...

几个月后, 小孩身边有了一群新朋友, 小孩和新朋友相处得很融洽, 可是每当小孩和新朋友在一起时, 他都希望在自己身边的是曾经的他们... ...小孩脑里偶尔会回荡着有个人曾经告诉他的' 不管发生什么事我都会站在你这边, 因为我相信你'...那句话很让小孩感动, 可是当所有人责备小孩时他并没有站在小孩那边, 他最终选择不再相信小孩...那个时候开始, 小孩就知道, 曾经在他一个转身就可以看到的人, 已经离开了... ...

结果有一天, 小孩迷路了... 他找不到的不是回家的路, 他找不回的, 是自己...
他发现自己变得好多, 变得有一点让自己惧怕, 变得不坦诚, 变得不努力...小孩很怕, 他怕自己变成自己曾经很讨厌的那个人... 他不断地再埋怨环境和世界为什么总是逼着他成长, 他明明就不想成长也正处于不必要成长的阶段, 为什么要逼他...
为什么不给他上完一堂叫人生的课才给他出考题, 为什么让他依赖好几年的人凭空消失... ... ... 小孩脑里浮现的为什么比十万个为什么还多...可是他找不到答案, 一个答案都没有...

终于, 在环境的逼迫下不想长大的小孩, 他还是长大了, 他发现自己需要变得更坚强...
于是, 小孩努力蜕变, 他希望让那些背弃他的人知道, 没有他们, 小孩的生活会更更更美好... 

小孩, 加油! :)

Trip to China_APHF'14

YaY YaY YaY! :D Hard time ended woohoo...;)) 

Seriously these 3 months were tough and that's the reason my blog is left blank although I've lots of things to update after back from the super memorable trip to China xoxo

After school concert and continued busy preparing for APHF...THOSE PRACTICES...

Seriously I HATE hahaha. Sorry to Pei Hong Tan and KKLP because I was hot-tempered and kept show them that super beh siok face during practices :P I hate when I got to manage time to study and practice harmonica because I couldn't and it's proven LOL Weeks before the competition when I didn't have the mood, I didn't practice and almost 24/7 facing homework, tuition, Bio and Sej Zzz A little regret now because I studied so much but 3/5 of the Sej paper 2 are KBKK questions LOL LOL Shytttt-_- 

Dayssss before competition I finally felt nervous and 24/7 practice :P *Sorry wo bu shi yi ge jin ze de tuan yuan yin wei bu fu ze ren shi wo de tian xing 

Those days-_- Homework are given to be copied yay! :D And I have super good skill on copying homework I COPIED VERY FAST!Zzz 

Days before and during competition I kept skipping class and tuition and turned out my Add Math and Chemistry hen shytttt because all the homework were copied=.= 

And finally, the day I hoped for the most came woohoo yay! :D

Eu will never know my feeling on that day morning and I don't know how to describe either...

It was my first time sitting aeroplane;

First time leaving with HB members;

First time join APHF,

First time went to China,

First time having trip without papa and mama;

First time experienced summer;

First time talked Chinese for continuous 7 days without mixing with any languages else;

First time didn't connect to FB for 7 days; and 

First time won in APHF WOOHOO YAY!!! :D :D :D

Words couldn't describe my happiness for those days and even now recalling make me feel excited X))) That's the way I love HB...<3 nbsp="">

Were walking around the airport thinking what to eat for breakfast and after half an hour we ended up eating nothing-_- Awesomeeee...zzz And that Michelle Nah=.= Woke early in the morning to chat with me and said bye bye ohhh...wawawa hao gan dong arr..:P

*ON PlANE

Aha it was the first time and of course I was extremely sua pah kao...:P Honestly, I didn't know we can watch movie on plane before this and I seriously wondered how people survive when they have to on plane for like hourssssss@@ Qing yuan liang wo de noobness LOL 

The moment when the plane flight off yay! I was damn excited and that time I was jealous because Pei Hong was sitting near the window!!!><><

Hmm so after that we changed flight at HKIA, and everyone was appreciating the last chance to connect FB XD

*We took many selfie on plane and of course at HKIA TOO!

Okay so we finally reach China YAY! :)) It was really tiring sitting aeroplane for 6 hours but we got to sit for another 2 hours' bus after we reached China-_- To prevent myself from getting bored, I non stop kacau-ing Pei Hong Tan :P 

Reach WuZhen 2 hours later and had our first meal at China there...X) I HATE THE MEAL

Although the scenery was really super undoubtedly undeniably nice but the foods were also super bu shi he wo de kou wei la OMG why so many vege ohhh?:( AND NOT ONLY BECAUSE OF VEGE!!! The fish you hen duo chi!!! And the prawn hen salty TT 1st day and I started to miss Penang food...:)) Okay and finally we left to our HOUSE... 

Went out and walked around with PH JY KKLP V...WE WERE LOST AND IT WAS DRIZZLING HAHAHA XD wasted 15 minutes to find our way back...:P Luckily I was with them oh zzz abo I seriously bu hui hui qu la OMG all the houses n bridges are the same FOR ME...:P 

Slept at 12a.m. at the first nightttt...:))

DAY 2

Get shocked early in the morning WTH=.= Peri and V didn't expect the sky would be so bright at China during 6a.m. and we thought we were overslept hahaha...:P Went to find ShinJie them early in the morning...:) Btw today breakfast was much much better than yesterday dinner yay the fried rice the milk the eu zha kuih yay! ;) Peri loves! :)) Went walking around...Pretty pretty scenary and the weather was nice ;) Left WuZhen at about 10a.m....

BYE BYE WUZHEN I THINK THE NEXT TIME I BE HERE WILL BE AFTER YEARS

AWESOME PERI XOXO

Watched bian lian before lunch, OMG that performer hen shuaii!!! :D:D

SAME. Today lunch doesn't suit me blehhh...:(( Went to ZheJiang hotel. Planned time staying at there: 15 min because just to register

Time staying at there: >2 hours LOL 

That moment we rushed here and there to ask for liquid zzz

Time wasted so we direct went for dinner...EAT AGAIN :O But dinner was better ohh...X)) Although the dong bo rou very oily but hen niceee!!! Went to SongCheng after dinner...

Most memorable experience: GHOST HOUSE=.=

Seriously this was the first time in life I went in to ghost house and I screamed like hell...Zzz

Kept pulling JunXian's shirt hahaha and that Lim Kah Chun!!! he touched my shoulder 1 time I screamed 1 time and that's the point wthhhhh...zzz After this when we gathered under the super big elephants...the elephants spray water!! Hmm nope, it split water too and WE GOT WET

The performance was super awesome! :D It's all about what's happening during Song chaooo....

Went back to hotel after this, practiced for like an hour and went back to room, 506...:D My room was super noisy even at midnight zzz Busy practicing hahaha...XD Last minute hard workkk...COMPETITION TOMORROW

DAY 3

Went to competition venue early in the morning, breakfast wasn't nice.

NERVOUS NERVOUS NERVOUS 

But instead of feeling nervous, I had lots of gan chu when listening to Fresco's HTTYD xoxo

Is HTTYD! :D Memorable! :)) I like our version more yay! And finally our turn and finally our turn ended hahaha. So I ki siao for like 1 month just for the 4 min on stage :P and btw undoubtedly KKLP WAS cute when he introducing the band xoxo Left stadium and went to youth centre for solo and quartet comp.....KFC burgers for lunch yay. I LOVE THE EGG TART

Bought Lim Chun Wei's birthday present here but bought le xim tia die le HAHA==

Went nearby hypermarket and shopped after that...LOTS of FOOD was bought...:P Bought Chelle's beloved cup noodles here haha...:D  Oh and YouQing went to China hospital! He was injured...:(( 

Sat at the roadside and waited for bus@@ WIFI CONNECTED

Forgotten what happened next but I slept late.

DAY 4

Went to Nan Song Qing Jie. Ate something called OU FEN@@ macam glue zzz And after that went to walked aroud at the street. YaY Peri and PeiHong walked here and there buying lots of things! :D PeiHong bought a cute hat!!!Jealous again=.= Went to youth centre for quartet competition again. And we knew our result!!! :D That exciting moment...:) And it marks the start of HOO HAA SPIRIT :P West Lake after this yay! :D HOT HOT HOT!!!><>

Went for dinner.

11 dishes. 4 veges. OMG SUPER FULL!!!@@

And it was Lim Chun Wei and Yeoh Yi Wei's birthday YAY!!! :D :D They were so lucky la seriouslyy wehhhh...Got to celebrate at China and some more other countries people sang birthday song for them ohhh...X)) Went back to stadium to watch a so called MASTER PERFORMANCE. Honestly, I slept there. Maybe I didn't know how to enjoy their music...:P 

Ate cup noodle for supper. Wechat with Chelle and finally slept.

DAY 5

Went to West Lake again early in the morning LoL We walked for like 2km to the tower but ended up we can't go in so we took photo outside the entry :PP And at here KKLP and JY were ki siao and they were humming our song as they walked around zzz Oh ya, JR SJ WC and ZH invented a new game here which tend to protect Lim Chun Wei away from Peri hahaha...XD IT'S AN EXTREMELY NOOB GAME. :( Went for lunch and back to hotel. 4 of the creative people went for their creative competition zzz

Lied on the bed for hours and after that went for the closing ceremony. oh ya today dinner was KFC burger again and the EGG TART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDD

Unexpectedly the creative team got 2nd runner up haha :D And we screamed soooo damn louddd when result was announced yay!!! :D WE'RE THE CHAMPION N THATS THE FACT

DAY 6

Traveled to ShangHai early in the morning. Bye HangZhou. Went to Nan Jing Lu, place where all branded are sold LOL and so we didn't buy anything. Juz walked in the shop to enjoy the air con YaY!XD

Went to Oriental Pearl Towel after this. This tower 468m height, is Asia no.1 ohhh...:) And of course the view from the tower is super nice LoL All buildings and river can be seen yay! :D I was so damn excited LOL

After enjoying the view then we went to the hmm...museum? and it's the place where I FELL DOWN!!!OMG the feeling was like hmm...you walk pass a narrow drain, and after that someone push you and you fall into the super narrow drain=.= seriously  I was stuck zzz 

Went to Cheng Huang Miao. YaY! Walked here and there to hunt for food for the 1st 45 minutes and hunt for souvenirs for the next 45 minutes. 

So for these xiao long bao, Ah Beh and Pei Hong ate 8 respectively HAHAHAHAHAHA XD

THIS' THE PLACE WE HAD OUR DINNER! :D

Bought Starbucks before leaving yay. Last station in China: Huang Pu River

The ship's nice and so does the view! :D Hen romantic ohhh...:))

And so here marks the end for our trip to China...:)) When going back to hotel, everyone was so excited in the bus hahaha. Maybe it's the way we appreciate the last moment together ohhh...:P

 Seriously I didn't want to sleep so early that night because I didn't want everything to end so fast...:( But of course I didn't sleep early. We were having meeting until 2a.m. zzz 

Day 7

So, we went to airport. Bought KIT KAT here to get the free earphone haha and also momo panda!!! :D BYE CHINA. Peri was having much much gan chu when going back...:( Time fliessss! I really hen sad when we dismissed at airport ohhh...:( Btw seriously this was the best week of my life! :D Thanks people. Thanks HB. Peri loves! :))

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After back from China and it's time for AGM haha. I'm officially retired lo! :)) 

And after this here came the trialssssssssssssssssssssssssssss 

Was really worried about how I gonna sit for the exam because honestly, my heart was still in China until the day before exam...:P I miss the life!!! FREE

3 weeks for trial. 1st 2 weeks had passed yay! :D And I slept less than 4 hours almost everyday :( Left only Peri's beloved Physics woohoo!! :D

Seriously I feel contented even if I don't get really good results. At least I passed these few super busy months successfully...:)
Only target left: SPM! Hwaitinggg...:D